My
most recent flood of tears almost put the current downpour of rain and hail to
shame. A prolonged wearily exhausted phase of being has not always been easy to
cope with; even an almost constant bruising constricted sensation across chest
and upper abdomen fails to overwhelm the spasmodic aches and pains in the upper
limbs (apparently emanating from the armpits).
Having
emerged from the duvet lair, some thirteen hours after retiring thence, I went
downstairs to prepare a chicken, peppers and mushroom casserole for dinner, as
well as parboiling some potatoes in water infused with my special blend of
herbs and spices. By the time the initial preparations were done I was ready
for another rest; I duly retired to the lounge and enjoyed watching our avian
visitors in the garden. Goldfinch, coal tits, blue tits, house sparrows,
blackbirds and wood pigeons all vied for my attention.
After
lunch we transferred some video footage of Wesley Chapel’s Anniversary and
rededication service, from 1994, to DVD. It was good recognizing some old
familiar faces in choir, congregational pews and pulpit, and it’s especially interesting
as that is now Helen’s home chapel, just as it was for my parents in their
later years. As I finalized the DVD a fascinating Human Planet documentary, which
had just started on BBC1, captured our attention.
We
both enjoyed watching the Senior School Choir of the year semi-final and, the
three choirs chosen to go through to the final coincided with our selection.
Shortly after that programme had finished my problems began; as I sat down
following a visit to the loo I suddenly found myself breathless as my chest and
abdomen felt as if they were being held in a vice and, I felt my colour drain
away (the pallor duly observed by my beloved) and felt very nauseous. The
crushing aches and pains were vying for attention everywhere from shoulder,
through the torso and down to the lower limbs. As I gasped for breath, the
tears began to flow and I felt terribly afraid, just feeling totally terrible.
The tears flowed for at least twenty minutes as the sundry symptoms became
unbearable.
I
am just relieved to feel normal (with my old familiar lower level aches and
pains) once again. as I sit and enjoy the company of my beloved!
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