It's just been one of those de-energised days, where one simply looks for fresh, non-physically active nor mentally demanding, distractions to escape the urge to nod off. That usually means attempting to catch up with e-mails, play about with a few graphics programmes and, perhaps not so unusually, looking for something to nibble.
Is this de-energised feel, and the longing for nibbles, part of a general malaise or a belated aftermath of quitting smoking some months ago! The fact that these almost lethargic states were part of me before the 'cold turkey' seems to suggest the former, as does the resumption of night-sweats etc.
The proton pump inhibitors seem to be doing a reasonable job of preventing any major reflux but, I still find myself being sparked off into 'acidic' bursts of anger with little provocation. On second thoughts, incompetent businesses (especially when they try to rip me off, or drag their feet), conservative middle-class attitudes and values etc. .., perhaps aren't such "little" provocations!
Hopefully, the generous and caring me still lurks quite close to this more caustic veneer!
PS (12.07 am - 6 April 2005) Some of this may seem familiar if you have visited Heterocon's Blog. The entry above ["If You're Reading This ..."] refers to the failure of the FTP server. In spite of a reported error I later found this item had published; meantime some of its gist had been posted elsewhere (under the misapprehension that this was a "lost" text).
- living and frequently struggling with moderate M.E. -
where (bad) health, faith, politics and the joys and troubles of daily life collide.
ME
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